Abstract art is my counter pole from an otherwise very controlling and petty mind. There I release everything and run on pure impulse. Even though a painting often starts with an idea, a plan, it's rarely comes out that way. I let it go badly and it does not matter. It is part of the process and almost everything I have painted have a lot of swear words and failure behind them. There are many layers of impulsivity, timing and hours behind the result. Many of the paintings have had a lot of different looks before they finish and add those little details that makes the final result a bit more interesting. The process it self is as satisfying as the finished work.
There is nothing in the art that is right or wrong when it comes to feeling and an image. Everyone thinks differently and that's wonderful! I hope you find a painting that fits your style!